Monday, October 31, 2016

Rinse

This day last year I was with my loved ones
So the loneliness that plagues me can be explained
A lot can happen in a year
But what I can't explain is that I'm lonely always

I'm not sure I knew what I had until it was gone
Which is strange, but tell me, what do you do
When your muscles ache from trying, your heart's in the sink
And your loved ones no longer love you?

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Don't clutch your hair tomorrow
You won't be able to let go
Don't lie down on the floor tomorrow
You won't be able to get up
Don't let your eyes get wet tomorrow
They won't be able to dry
Don't think about people tomorrow
You won't be able to work

Don't consider your grief tomorrow
You won't be able to stop
Don't press your nails to your skin tomorrow
Unless you want it gone

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

You see no meaning to your life
You should try
You should try













Coldplay

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Wednesday

Something about Wednesday always gets to me
'Cause every hard thing catches up to me eventually
And what better time than the middle of the week?
Today I think about how everyone forgets me

(This is really selfish)

I can't get it out of my brain
They know I love him, but they're the ones that change
Did I ever push them away?
Not even once-- but now it's not the same

I don't belong anywhere except by his side
Which wouldn't be a problem if I didn't see them all the time
Reminding me of why I cry on Wednesday nights
Hoping that I haven't hurt anyone-- all I ever do is try

I've tried and I've fought
To be enough, but I'm not
I'm pretty much gone
So I pray that I'm wrong

And I pray they'll still love me
Because morning is coming
There's another day of facing
Instead of just running

Because I would just forget about it
Forget about them, pretend I don't notice
But I still love them so much, every last bit
And it isn't my calling to give up on all this



It just hurts really bad
Especially on Wednesdays
I just remember everything
And think of everything else
And I really just hurts
It hurts, hurts, hurts






Sunday, October 9, 2016

Sweatpants.

I'm shivering tonight
Not because my house is cold
But because I'm used to your warmth
I'm used to the safety I find in your hold

One day I won't have to shiver
One day I won't care what they think about us
Because let's face it, I'm writing this here for a reason
I love them painfully dearly, but I've had quite enough

Please take my hand
And get us out of here as fast as you can
This appreciative town won't miss us
Well, they'd miss you, but let me have one selfish plan

Just for tonight.

We can build a house in the forest
And live in the trees
We could move to some city
On the other side of the country

Or we could live in that house
The one that you showed me
Surrounded by water
Sitting there perfectly

Let's go start an orphanage
I know God means so much for us
Let's go to France
And show people love

We can find an island all by ourselves
We can claim it and name it and dig our own wells
We can spend a while away from everyone else
Where I can just hold you if you want to be held



But I'm still shivering
And you are too
Let's just breathe
We'll make it through