Yes, I Am Perfect.

I keep on looking

Back and forth

I keep on searching

But I'm not sure what for

You are a miracle for the pessimist

The rise in a slowing song

And I wasn't sure how to handle it

Especially now that you're gone 

It's like I'm living in a train wreck

Well, that is, my mind

Sorting through the damage

And dusting off what's mine

People tell me I'm the friend who smiles

A steady girl, my feet in place 

I guess I've never told them I'm 

Like the wind inside a hurricane

I'm tugged back and forth 

I fall and I fly

I'm taken for granted 

I'm closing my eyes

Needing to be needed 

Like I need to help someone 

But there's no one I can talk to

So I don't see the sun

It's an endless cycle of give and repeat

Where my time and emotions are taken from me

I'm finding it harder and harder to breathe

Because no one understands me like you do, you see

And nobody listens or gets it at all

They think I'm on top but all I do is fall

They swear that I'm perfect, and it's all I can do

To not scream my heart out and tell them the truth

I keep telling myself that I know what is real

And I don't need them to all know how I feel

They don't validate all that goes on inside

My life is not based upon what they realize

And now, I'm only talking to myself 

Because at the moment I don't have anyone else

It's hurting like crazy, but God isn't deaf

I miss you more than I can bear, and it's not over yet